Today is Friday, so I move from 5 to 4 cigarettes a day. While I fell off the wagon on Wednesday, I feel like I am doing really well. I know everyone thinks I should quit cold turkey, I feel like this is working for me. Truly the only person who supports my cutting back is Kitty, my sister. It seemed to work for her. This also isn’t my first time quitting. I have quit many times before. But what always happens is I would have a stressful day and I would start smoking again. One time I quit for 6 months then I just had one cigarette and I was back to a pack a day. I feel good about my progress this time!
My new schedule for cigarettes is when I wake up (usually around 8:30ish), 12:30, 4:30 and 9:30. I hardest part is cutting out the second one in the morning. For some reason I always smoke a lot in the mornings. I think because I am often stressed in the morning. I think what this means I am going to have to do is start making a new schedule for the mornings. Instead of waiting until 11 am to get dressed, I should get dressed earlier. I just need to keep myself busy in the mornings that way I can’t think about having another cigarette.
Today is my first day of Spring Break. I can’t decide if this is going to make things harder or easier. Part of me is glad that I won’t have anything structured to do, but at the same time structure really helps me stay focused. Truthfully I have so much that I need to be doing over this break. I have two tests on the Thursday that I get back, so I really need to be studying. I have decided that when I get back from Spring Break I will be on campus from 8ish to about 4 or 5. That way I have structured time to study my butt off before the test. But I can’t leave all the studying until then, so I really do my study guides and my flashcards during Spring Break. Plus I have a take home test that I really want to finish by Wednesday. So much for a “break.”
I am getting really excited about the puppy (even if it still 5 months away). Even Dan’s roommate is getting excited. However, we have a lot to do before we can get a puppy! I mean we pretty much have to clean Dan’s entire house to make it puppy safe, especially the backyard! We have decided that we are going to rescue a puppy. I need to talk to my friend Michelle and figure out what the best place to adopt one from. I have been obsessively looking at the SPCA of Northern Virginia’s website, but it is turning out to be a bad idea. I have pretty much picked my dog out, but I still have to quit smoking first. This dog might be adopted by then. Then I start looking at the cats that need adopting and one looks just like Boo. But we can’t have a cat because of Maggie and Dan is allergic. So right now I need to stay focused on the goal of only 4 cigarettes today.
Plus this weekend I am cleaning out my storage locker. So it’s a bit overwhelming to think about. Luckily I have convinced Dan to take my couch because his is horrible. And Boo’s stuff is mostly already in my parents’ basement, so no emotional stuff there. But it is going to be a lot of heavy lifting and I suck at that! It is pretty much going to be Dan doing everything and I am just going to stand there, helplessly. But I will feel better once it is cleaned out. Then my money will no longer be sucked into that place.
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