The Plan

So every good mission has a plan. Here is mine:

I plan to cut back one cigarette every week. I started on Friday, the 17th smoking 6 cigarettes so every Friday I will cut back by one. On Friday, the 24th I will start having only 5 cigarettes a day. Then on March 2nd, I will only smoke 4, then so on, until March 30th, when I will be smoking no cigarettes.

I will be increasing my gum intake as my cigarettes go down. Right now I am taking 4 mg twice a day. So by March 30th, I am sure I will be up to 8 pieces a day. I will continue with the 4 mgs until April 6th. At that point I will lower the dose to 2 mgs. Then it will take time for me to replace the gum with a lollipop.

I plan on being completely smoke and nicotine free by June 1st. That way I will have two months free of nicotine. It is also a safety net in case I slip up and have a piece of gum or even a cigarette. Also Dan had mentioned that if I am smoking and nicotine free for a month before August 1st, then we might get a puppy early.

This is going to rough and I know it. I am already feeling the pressure on myself. I feel like I am already not doing well enough. I have smoked 3 cigarettes today and it’s only 10 am. I have to say that being at school or at home, I am horrible. At Dan’s house, I am perfectly fine. I think that it’s two fold. 1) He gives me a hard time every time I smoke and 2) I hate how everyone can see me smoking on his front porch. I feel so guilty when the little boys come outside and smoking. I feel like their mom is ready to kill me. Not smoking in the car is also hard. Mostly I keep telling myself that how much I want a cigarette now, I will want one more later.

Plus I keep myself busy. I set things I have to do before I can have a cigarette. Mostly I write emails and clean my room. Also this weekend I will be cleaning out my storage locker so I am sure that I will have millions of boxes to go through. I have so much paper that I keep. I think my project over the summer is to go through all the paper work that is in my room currently and whatever paperwork I get out my storage locker. I think that it’s time I threw away all of my undergrad notes for psychology 101. I never ever look at them. Plus I think I’m going to take psychology here at NoVA.

If you need me to help you do something to, let me know…keep me busy!